Journey In Journals

Responsibilities & Expectations     Just up to recently, like a few weeks ago, I officially left my job. I was working as a Management Trainee and part of my job responsibilities was to assist the existing Assistant Manager with his or her responsibilities while filing the basic responsibilities of running the outlet. I was coping and handling the job greatly until I started to overwork myself where I was clocking to work early to cover my colleagues' shift while continue to retain my work quality. My sleep hours were getting shorter and shorter as the days went by. As a result, I felt like I was losing control of my thoughts and actions and all I wanted at that point was to rest and have fun.      I know I can work and bring quality to my works but why can't I handle the expectations and stress that comes along with it? In the beginning, I thought it was due to my diagnosis of my mental health. However, I had a second thought as I read a post of not letting...

 "You have  BPD."      In the Year 2022, I graduated from Singapore Polytechnics and began working. However, things were not going so smoothly. I kept changing my jobs due to my frequent meltdowns and stress, and this kept happening. A year later, I thought of seeing a professional to seek advice on my frequent meltdowns. However, I got scared of being judged, feeling down and hopeless thus, I back away and continued looking for a job.       Now, here I am in 2024, and just became unemployed (again) but things are different now, with a more determined mind to change and a stronger support from my boyfriend, I decided to commit to my idea of seeking a professional for advice. And that happened to be my 2024 New Year gift where I was diagnosed with a borderline personality disorder by a psychiatrist.       I had a slight feeling that there was something different about me, but I did not expect it to be a personality disorder...